Letters from Koko — 5 Months
Our First Semester
Dodo,
Five months, and our first semester done hehe
The courses I was forced to take :p
- Advanced Tone Research
- Quick Resolutionomics
- Timezone Management
- Understandatics
- Introduction to Watching You Sleep On Call and Not Getting Irritated
- Applied Height Jokes
I think I passed with flying colours apart from one course heheh. (Vo bhi pass toh hua hi hu, bol de Dodo ;_;)
Well, this month started with a uhmm aah bang? Pehle din hi ladai kar li merse, meri shone, chotu amul makkhan 20rs. Ghar wali baate batao anniversary wale din ladai karta hai. Humari ladai ka bar thoda kam ho gaya hai waise. Thoda badha lete hai (Bag laya hu tere liye. Dekhni hai kya? ;P)
Also, warning in advance: is letter mein koi flow nahi hai. Kabhi bhi kuch bhi aa sakta hai.
Jokes apart, Dodo.
The real highlight for me this month was the night you came home a bit not in your senses. I was bohot stressed (haan bol le, maan mein, in my defence i called when i was home, kaha jaunga fir, etc etc, not listening anything). Thoda gussa bhi tha ki Dodo itna careless nahi hona chahiye, new city hai. And for once, I properly felt the ocean between us.
That night I found out you mean so much more than I actually thought. And I already thought you meant a lot to me, toh soch itna zyada. Not in a nice way, and not in a way I would ever choose to find out baby. Please dont ever do that again. ;_;
I was so tensed, so tensed, i cant express it in words. That night I felt, as you say, love doesnt cut it, through 100x more. And I think I have known it for the last two and a half years without ever putting it in words.
Aur ab, New York.
Packing list:
1 bag, full thepla aur khakhra
1 question: tere bed pe hum dono fit aa jaayenge?
Tere imaginary kapde
Guide to understand your newly acquired accent
And yes Bahut saara pyaar, bahut saari huggie and kissi
Things I am forgetting to bring:
Khaana banane ka irada. (Pehle bata raha hu, i am not cooking, yea tera department hai Dodo) 😄
We have booked so many things:
- Hamilton (never knew this was so special for you, feeling grateful thoda toh tere saath dekhne jaa raha, please baat kar lena beech mai, story kaun samjhaega?)
- Harry Styles
- Torrisi (torri si pyaar aa gayi tere pe baby hehe bad joke f)
- Bungalow
But the thing i am most excited about is Wall Street.
Sorry sorry shonaa, mere dodo, mazak kar raha hu, dodo yaar mere dodo oyeee shonee.
You. Only thing i am excited about is you. Agar main New York aake kuch na karu aur bas tere paas baitha rahu, I'll have no complaints. No complaints claim from me is a big thing, terko toh pata hi hai dodo. (Iska matlab yeh nahi ki mai kuch nahi karunga. Mai tujhe har jagah le jaunga, aur terko chalna padega.)
Aur jab tune kal bola ki tu Wall Street, Central Park, Brooklyn bridge and so many places you didnt go. Teen mahine se tu NYC mein hai. Mai hota toh shayad main chala jaata. Baby yaar tu bhi, i love you so much. Idk what to say. Chhoti chhoti cheezein hai yeh, but I notice a lot.
Yes, this was the first full month where I loved you only through a screen. Through bad audio, through “awaaz nahi aa rahi”, through “Koko, sirf 10 minute hai, mujhe padhai karne jaana hai”. Dodo sab manage kar lenge apne dono. We will float through the thick and thin. We will have our quota of fun and nook-jhook, but promise mera rahega na? (Bata jaldi bata)
5 months (or one semester cutu). 5 months on paper seems small. But its not 5, it feels more like years have gone by (love still keep growing exponentially). I dont know, every month when i sit and write these i just feel so so grateful. Thank you, Dodo. A few things cannot be expressed on paper/text ig. But I keep trying anyway. Maybe that is the whole point of writing these every month, that if I cannot get it right today, I get a little closer the next time. Whatever ends up on paper is always the smaller half of love (lets call it love for the time being, even though it doesnt cut it). The bigger half just stays with me through ordinary days. In the middle of a meeting, in an auto, standing in a queue somewhere, doing nothing at all.
Honestly I do not know how to end this one either. So let me just say the only thing I am sure of: I am going to keep writing these till we lose count, till you are bored of them, and then a few hundred more after that.
Happy 5 Month Anniversary, Dodo.
— Tera Koko 🤍